These Thoughts of Mine

Buttercup 😈  Do that shit cause you wanna do it.   Blossom 🌸 When you do it bc someone else wants you to, or subconsciously think it’s what they want, you begin to look for gratification for your actions (praise, compliments, ego stroking etc) £false confidence  . I guarantee you’ll be mad every time it’s not given from that person . Which breads resentment . But when you do it from your heart, because you wanted to, your gratification comes from within . You give yourself compliments and praise. In turn , creating a positive voice for yourself . The more you practice in that , the louder that voice becomes . And That voice comes in handy in times of trouble .  £false confidence ~ yourself esteem , you value , is rooted in what others think of you . And all it would take is one person to “burst your bubble . “

 Original date 08/2021  Buttercup.😈 Disclaimer. Lmao. I’m no longer as hostile behind the situation, but my principle is still the same. Don’t play w me!  “I’m strong so I’ll stick by you and endure things ... but I’m not stupid! I’m smart enough to know when i also need to be strong and decide to leave . You the one stupid Awenough to think I’d stay through your bs . The thing is there’s conditions to me .   I tell all my relationships as long as you’re trying , I’m staying . Nobody perfect . Everybody got flaws, past mistake, trauma , etc . I’m here for them , as long as you’re willing to work to better yourself and heal from all those thing. Continuously strive to be a better you .... but the moment i finally realize, you’re not bettering yourself , and only hurting me” you better believe imma choose me  ✌🏾 . Thing about me is i have no problem in leaving a person behind... because i a know my heart and who i am ! I know i gave chance after chance, tried to...