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Do that shit cause you wanna do it .!

Buttercup 😈  Do that shit cause you wanna do it.   Blossom 🌸 When you do it bc someone else wants you to, or subconsciously think it’s what they want, you begin to look for gratification for your actions (praise, compliments, ego stroking etc) £false confidence  . I guarantee you’ll be mad every time it’s not given from that person . Which breads resentment . But when you do it from your heart, because you wanted to, your gratification comes from within . You give yourself compliments and praise. In turn , creating a positive voice for yourself . The more you practice in that , the louder that voice becomes . And That voice comes in handy in times of trouble .  £false confidence ~ yourself esteem , you value , is rooted in what others think of you . And all it would take is one person to “burst your bubble . “
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Im resilient not stupid

 Original date 08/2021  Buttercup.😈 Disclaimer. Lmao. I’m no longer as hostile behind the situation, but my principle is still the same. Don’t play w me!  “I’m strong so I’ll stick by you and endure things ... but I’m not stupid! I’m smart enough to know when i also need to be strong and decide to leave . You the one stupid Awenough to think I’d stay through your bs . The thing is there’s conditions to me .   I tell all my relationships as long as you’re trying , I’m staying . Nobody perfect . Everybody got flaws, past mistake, trauma , etc . I’m here for them , as long as you’re willing to work to better yourself and heal from all those thing. Continuously strive to be a better you .... but the moment i finally realize, you’re not bettering yourself , and only hurting me” you better believe imma choose me  ✌🏾 . Thing about me is i have no problem in leaving a person behind... because i a know my heart and who i am ! I know i gave chance after chance, tried to...
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Focus

Original: 11/2021 Focus .   Blossom 🌸 Make a plan and go after it instead of letting the bricks fall where they may because “it’ll work out in the end”  Be intentional!  Be intentional When you wake up (schedule)  Be intentional  when you go to sleep. (Discipline)  Be intentional Mid day (Boredom habits . Yup you know what I’m talking bout cause almost EVERYBODY has a habit/vice  Be intentional mid conversation. (When it’s going a direction you don’t want it to go)  Buttercup😈 I can’t keep having the when i feel like it Attitude. Getcho ass up . 🙄 You ever have those    moments where you have like an epiphany about yourself .  Like that moment you realize what it is that YOU are doing that’s in YOUR own way, from reaching YOUR    own goals?    Bubbles 🫧  You can only do as much as you can do . Enjoy your victories along the way.  Jog not run I’m proud if you for realizing you have a issue. I’m even ...
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Kick it with ya self

 Original: sometime after July 2022  Blossom  Sometimes you gotta kick it w ya self.   How you want better for yourself everyday , but hang around folks w no goals , no plans, no manners, no morals , immature.? The moment you realize that dynamic in your circle of influence , distance yourself ! No spite. No hard feelings cause you’ll miss ya blessings that way . Just let them be , you go be the better you that you seek .  Figure out the friend in you , so you can know the friend you need. And when it’s time to step out of isolation you’ll have a clear understanding of what you will and will not allow in your Friendships.
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Welcome

“ Welcome to the mind of a maniac  🥲🙃 ” no I’m just joking … unless it’s true …I’ll leave that for the doctors that may decide to analyze me from    these thoughts of mine.  But no for real . I’d be like to give everyone a big welcome to    my journal. . I’d also like to share a little bit about myself and how i wrote.  First things first ya girl is an amateur ok . Meaning i wasn’t taught how to write outside of 6th grade creative writing class. I have always been an amazing note taker and had a knack for knowledge and understanding . I’ve been very independent (self isolated bc of past disappointments) my entire life so there were many times where it was just me and God*.    Anyway i took all of those book worm skills w me everywhere. Even when i went to church. I always took notes when i went , but it got serious for me at this one church because SHE preached , gave quotes, scriptures, examples, lecture, and tweeted sometimes . She h...
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