Welcome

“ Welcome to the mind of a maniac 🥲🙃” no I’m just joking … unless it’s true …I’ll leave that for the doctors that may decide to analyze me from  these thoughts of mine. 

But no for real . I’d be like to give everyone a big welcome to  my journal. . I’d also like to share a little bit about myself and how i wrote. 

First things first ya girl is an amateur ok . Meaning i wasn’t taught how to write outside of 6th grade creative writing class. I have always been an amazing note taker and had a knack for knowledge and understanding . I’ve been very independent (self isolated bc of past disappointments) my entire life so there were many times where it was just me and God*.  Anyway i took all of those book worm skills w me everywhere. Even when i went to church. I always took notes when i went , but it got serious for me at this one church because SHE preached , gave quotes, scriptures, examples, lecture, and tweeted sometimes . She had a way of speaking that hit home for me. 

Fast forward to 2017 i was in a dark space. One thing to know about me i do not like being uncomfortable . And that dark space was uncomfortable. So naturally a problem solver, ok how can i get outta this? Well let’s research. Im not sure who or what told me to try it . but i started writing in 2018. Over the years I’ve grown dialogues that speak in different tones because sometimes you need to be on your own ass and sometimes you need soft encouragement . Whichever you find first, i hope you learn to love them all. 

Some notes maybe incomplete ya know bc. SQUIRREL! .But hey. I’ll always try my best to finish them . Understand i ain’t slow my mind just moves fast than my fingers sometimes so i may be grammatically incorrect at times. . Some words i may leave out just bc when we’re reading our minds kinda plug in those words (context) , or sometimes i may just have a “big note” in my head and I’m tryna get it out short note taking style.

I do love to explain in details , but this INTRO SHOULDNT BE 5 pages long about my background. When it really should be talking about this blog i just started and how I’ve thinking out blogging and writing for the last 5 years and so excited to just find a space to write on the web w a share button . 

I hear/ type my thoughts out in different “voices” and as you grow familiar w my ready you’ll understand how “blossoms 🌸” messages  have a different tone than “Buttercup 😈” does, or a different delivery than “Bubbles 🫧” does They are really just different aspects of the same opinion . 

 

All in all i am me. Me ain’t perfect , but me is forever evolving . Maybe after you read some you may evolve too. The things in my notes may or may not hit for you . And that’s just fine either way. These thoughts of mine are a collection of past and present notes from explainations, examples , maybe even charts who the hell knows. It helped me along my self aware journey and i hope it can help at least one other person . Spirituality is HEAVY in my thoughts as religion was heavy in my upbringing. Harsh truths are HEAVY in my thoughts as reality was heavy in my upbringing  . Open mindedness is HEAVY in my thoughts as support was heavy in my upbring. Happy reading .